Dear God

Dear God, I am confused.

When I was young,
I always had lots of fun.

I was told, I had a say in everything,
And I could do what I wanted,
So amidst the grownups now,
Why do I feel so haunted?

Why did I have to grow up?
And bear the responsibilities of this world,
Why are the rules so suffocating?
Why is happiness so curled?

Why can't there be forgiveness,
Why are consequences there?
Why can't people be friendlier?
Why isn’t everything equal and fair?

This world where friendship is bait,
For a deeper selfish cause,
Where society harms its own people,
With cold and superstitious laws.

I miss my world with the tooth fairies,
Which said that Santa was real.
Where happy endings were constant,
Where existed your angels.

Why did you have to take that away from me?
Suddenly this world has become harsh,
It’s difficult, this transition,
I feel like I am trapped in a marsh.

I ask you, I shout,
For a branch that would pull me out,
Cause instead of drowning in my plight,
I would try and give it a fight.

I fear...

Toughness may just be my cover,
Cause I always feared the possibility of the worst.
And when it comes to you,
Optimism seems an illusion.

I fear that irrelevant people,
May affect the most relevant decisions of our lives.

I fear that hoax words of the air,
May suffocate us.

I fear that promises and priorities,
May drift us apart.

I fear that the moment of exult we wait for,
May become our deadlock.

I fear that you, the significant one,
May never be able to understand what you mean to me.

I fear that the fact,
The fact that you are incredible,
That one day, when people realise that,
I would become just an audience for you.

I fear that you had a better past,
You deserve a better future,
And I am just a link,
A sidekick to this amazing story,
Where, you are the protagonist,
And I am just another character.

I fear, I have always been in a complex,
I always did want to be a reacher,
The good part about being a reacher is,
The settler is the best thing that could happen to him,
But the worst part is,
It is not the other way round...

Romanch

Jeene ki chaahat hai,
Adhoore khwabon ki kashti ko kinara chahiye.

Lehar abhi shaant hai,
Mere iraadon ki khabar se pare hai.

Iss sanaate ki awaaz mein,
Ek sangeet hai, jashn ka.

Saaf neele aasmaan par,
Safed rang bikher diye kisi ne.

Itne aasaan azmat ki,
Naa aadat thi, naa aadat ho.

Shaam ne paigaam diya andhere ko,
Meri tamanna ke baare mein.

Tabhi shayaad hawaon ke rukh mein taazagi aa gayi,
Aandhiyon mein jaise jaan si aa gayi.

Jaise in kaale baadlon ke saaye mein,
Aasmaan ka rang aur gaadha ho gaya.

Abhi toh safar ka imtehaan chaalu hua hai,
Abhi toh zindagi mein romanch chalu hua hai...